When I shared, She shared, and We shared~

I am so blessed for this caregroup, that held up in Friday, 22 March.
For 2 weeks, weve been through our most difficult time (esp, for me). We called it, UTS.
And, in this caregroup, we've given time to share.. The purpose is knowing our each struggle..
First, my friends, Vie shared about his journey with God for these 2 weeks.
We are so blessed knowing that She still could say Give Thanks to God for everything happened in her life though she got not so bad grade for a test, but she knew that whatever she got, Jesus knows what the best is.
After she shared, I took that time to share with my friend, my family, EMM1.
I decided to share because I've thought to much why I was so brave to share my problem to others that they might talk to the other..
But, I've felt that they were my family in Christ. So, I myself more enjoyable to say what in my mind.
For the first time, I cried out in front of all of them and every eyes on me. I started to tell my mistakes to them. I told them about my struggle with my mouth and my mind.. For these 2 weeks, it was my biggest diff time ever in my life (if I don't forget).
I'm the one that can't control my mind if I've done a big mistake and I always blamed myself. It just made me feel so guilty and insecure.
For the big problem start from my mouth. I often said  the words that not positive and sometime become a stumbling block for each other. more clearly, when physics time, I spoke a worst word and these words and moment always full in my mind for 2 weeks more and I just blamed myself..
I really couldn't enjoy my day after that, and I faced difficult in my UTS.
The next bad things is, my pride..
When I faced physics, I just thought that I've done all with my endeavor..
I forgot that all things is By God and For God only..
And when I know I got mistake, I thought too much about that..
and what else?
I couldn't see God's blessing in my life because it was closed by my mistake and my thought that thinking my problem was so big, and God didn't present.. I must be so bad..
After I shared that, my friend gave me feedback and some advise.

1. Stop judging yourself.

Yes, it's right. Because God self has forgiven us, why we can't deal with my mistake. All thing you have to do is not to do it again and make a commitmen to be better next.

2. Don't be so proud of ourselves

Sometimes we felt that we were too big and didn't see how big is milky way than us.. what should we proud about ourselves from this world views. God told us to down to earth.. we have nothing when we came to this world. all we have to do just do what Jesus has given us as the model of whole our life.. that's all. Remember what purpose of our life,not to glorify ourselves, but moreover is God only.. We are as lowly slave so that is our job to glorify our master.

3. Do everything with all your heart as to God not to human

In Collosians 3:23, God told us to do this. sometimes it's too heart, because we have a sinful nature but don't use it as reasons to not be excellent in God.

We struggle everyday, all for God. I went to university, did my paper, task, test, all For Jesus.
Would you give a usual for Jesus?  No way.We have to be excellent, we have to be strong in Him.
We have to be faithful in Him as He had done that being faithful to do His service in this world.
So, what else we have to do than glorify Him with all our hearts.
Collosian 3:2 , "Pikirkanlah perkara yang di atas, bukan yang di bumi".

God Bless us