What kind of Feeling is this?

Sometimes, I felt so Lost. .
Maybe I've too often to say this, but this is what I feel, and I'm afraid, feel insecure, etc. .
Anw, I felt that this second semester was too bad, I don't know, I wonder I can't get the best,because I know I still didn't give the best too.
sometimes I think it's okay, doesn't matter, but I can't lie with my heart, yeah, I'm afraid, and I wonder about my grade. too bad?
Actually I wanna change. but I still in process..

And then, I still trying to be Woman of God.
This's my big desire.
Yah, I am a disciple, so this is my privilege to glorify my Lord.
but, the hard I try, too many mistakes I got.
Yeah, I learn too much from all this life
Pray for me though, so I can become better and better,..

Anw, this week I wanna try to not looking for the others.
I mean, I'm often looking the other and trying to be like them, and just now, I will not be like that anymore. .
I don't wanna be like that anymore.
The one I can look at, only God, no anyone nor myself.

But, so many things that I committ.
Back again, I'm afraid..

no But, but Eventhough..
Replay

"EVENTHOUGH I'M AFRAID, I WILL TRY MY BEST"

The clear mission this week :
1. Be a soft woman and kinder
2. Just looking to God, no other.
3. Keep my eyes and heart , also mind for God.

Amen