Make a room for God in my heart .

Holiday will finish soon and I'll back to the crowded activity. Moreover, I am in the third semester then, and I take a ministry and new responsibility in one of organization in my campus. I am not ready though. Because what I've planned since the holiday still not coming was not realize and it just like beautiful words and they're all gone.

That thing that makes me feel so bad is planning about build more relationship with God. I plan to use my time carefully and fulfill it to know God more and more. But, what I get just drying.. Honestly in these holiday I felt lost, again. I felt so bad.

The first holiday I've spent in my sister's house. I failed again to keep my integrity.. I didn't pray, even go to church. One night, I felt insecure, and I can't sleep until 3 hours struggling to asleep. I just don't know what I felt about. Then I sit, and I read the bible then pray. I just said, I am sorry God, I don't realize that How I miss You.. Then, I sleep.

As I back to dormitory, and back to my daily activity here, one of them is WNS activity. I got troubles with my self. I feel so determinded. I feel like I always do mistakes and make myself as the fault.

However, I come to Friday Night Fellowship, the speaker was Mr.Junius, my dormparents. He told me the most important problem in my life. It's not about what the other thought about me, it's not about the clothes or little things that not should be a problem. But the real problem is, how my relationship with God, how I fulfill His purpose in my life, how I know that what I've done make Him happy.. Because I live in this world for His purpose though.
It just rebuke my heart, as I look into my heart,
```why are you so insecure about the things that are not the real problem that you have to think too much?```

And today, I am going to Church, it has been long time I am not going to church. I forgot when the last time I am going. For usually, I follow the sunday service in my campus.
And satnight I just told to my friends, let's go together to church. Because,
I feel so dry and I miss God so much. that things fulfill my mind.

when I heard the Gospel, From Exodus 40, it's about make a room for God.

The first thing that we have to do that is, "do everything as in His way" (Exodus 40:1-15). Moses has given us the model how He is so fulfill God's command without less one thing.
And the second is, "complete it well and make a room for God".
It rebuke me, I feel like I'm too often to reject God in my heart. But, in this sunday He keeps knock my heart's door and I am so blessed knowing this.
God wants me to make a room for Him with Him by fellowship, prayer, service and so many things. Just to make me His..

I pray, I can use this rest of holiday as my quality time with God. And be sensitive with His will in my life.. Follow him and make a room in my heart..
Let's God fulfill my cup..

Halleluyah.
Glorify be to God..