Sinful nature

when  I say, I love God, what's in my mind?
Maybe, full of joy, full of happiness or etc.
But, when I'm in the worst situation, could I say that?
I want to say that right now.
Jesus, I love you.
Not in my comfort time, but everytime that You give for me.

Help me to be not selfish .
Help me to say thanks for everything that You have done in my life.
Jesus.
I know, sometimes I felt so sad because of the things that not be same as my plan.
sometimes I felt that You are so far, and leave me alone.
I can't pretend this feeling o Lord.
Help me not become the one that jeaolus to anyone,
I want to talk to You.